Honestly, things have been hard for the last two weeks. I haven't felt good for the majority of the time. I've been tired---way too tired. And, fundamentally I have been trying to adjust to a new lifestyle here in Texas where I feel like I don't know anyone and don't have a "life". I haven't gotten out much (because of a sick child and being sick myself) and I am sure that all these things just added up to me just----well, hitting a wall.
I still was pretty good at watching what I ate this week, but I didn't get out and exercise like I should have. So, I didn't reach all my goals. This week I DO feel guilty about it because I choose not to do the things that I should have. Last week I had no control, but this week I did. Guilt and frustration are basically what is controlling me right now.
So where do I go from here? Well, I am going to try and to continue to push on. I'm hoping that this upcoming week will be better and that my attitude will change, too. The good news is that I haven't given up yet. I still want these changes....I guess I've just pulled over to the side of the road right now on my journey to this change. I'll get back on soon.
I'm happy to get an advice or help from y'all. If there's anything that I've learned in life, it's that the hardest changes you have to make in life are definitely worth it---but you should never have to try to do it on your own. The more you open up to people and let them help, the easier change becomes.
So why the picture of Kate? Well, she's my best inspiration. Her innocence, love and cute little kisses help me remember why I want this in the first place. My sweet baby....I thank Heavenly Father for her every day.
2 comments:
I SO know how you are feeling right now. I've been there. The thing I think would be the most helpful would be to just look to the new day or the start of a new to become renewed in your committment. Guilt isn't good though. The past is the past. You can't go back and undo the week, so just look to what you want to do this next week. I think you are doing so great. Your honesty is refreshing. It is such a difficult thing. Hang in there. I'm thinking about you. Love ya!
I'm so proud that you have found your own solution, "to try and continue to push on...this week will be better." If you work on being positive, I will work on not worrying and being positive. Keep working and it will get better...there is hope. Never give up! I love you!
Mom
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